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The letter I wrote to cope with suicidal thoughts

Depression is one of the loneliest things you can deal with and the most important thing you can ever do is talk to people. It's never easy telling those you love that you feel depressed and suicidal but it can quite literally be life-saving. 

When suffering from any mental illness there will be days which are especially difficult, days when you want to give up and just end it all. These days are when you need support from your loved ones the most and it's vital you tell someone how you're feeling. However, I also believe it's extremely important to have tools in place to be able to lift yourself out of those dark places and save yourself too. The same method won't help every time so it's vital to have a few different tools you can rely upon, methods such as meditation, exercise, talking with loved ones, writing down your thoughts, and getting outside. 

For me, what I used most was a letter I wrote to myself, which reminded me of my strength and the many amazing reasons for staying alive. I wanted to share this letter to help others to hopefully be able to write something similar for themselves. I'm extremely grateful to be able to say that I haven't needed to use this letter for a long time but in the past, it was a crucial help for me.

"So you're reading this letter because you feel low, helpless and you can't see much point in this thing we call life. However, you've felt like this before and you will feel like this again yet every single time you get through it. Your record rate is 100% and that isn't going to change. You may have an overwhelming feeling of sadness right now but it will pass, even if it lasts a couple of days there's always light at the end of the tunnel.

When you're happy your mind feels relaxed and at ease, you smile, laugh and feel positive. When your feeling low you can't imagine being able to get back to that place, however, it is possible and I want to remind you how far you have come. The battles you've been through and that you've always come out the other side. This is just a bad mood, it's not a bad life. You've been through much darker. So please remember this mood is only temporary, every mood we feel is temporary but the dark ones just hurt more.

I want you to find something you can focus on, something to aim towards or just something to keep you busy until this mood passes. If it's something, in particular, that's getting you down then write about it, put pen to paper and get it all out. This always helps. I also want you to write down 10 positive things in your life and keep reading over them. The majority of the time it's about changing your mindset. At the moment your feeling negative so we just need to switch that.

Most of all I want to take you to a place where you can feel some peace, even just for a minute. I want you to think of the times when you sang in the car with Toby, arrived somewhere on holiday, watched a sunset, wandering around a garden on a sunny day. Whatever feels good right now, take yourself there and let it consume your whole body. Stay there as long as you need and stay until you feel more relaxed. Use this tool and revert back to that feeling of calmness at any point.

Remember no matter how alone you feel right now you have so many people around you who love you, so please don't push them away. Remember that you've got a dream fiance, family who all care about you, a group of really good friends, a beautiful house and a great business. It may not feel like much to you right now but those little things, are really all that matters in life.

You're a fighter. You've done this before and you'll do it again, this will never ever, ever beat you. No matter how bad it feels you always get yourself out of it, so just keep reminding yourself that. Take it day by day, hour by hour, just one step at a time and you'll get there. You will find your happiness again, just give it time."




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